It came in the mail yesterday and I was jumping for joy! WoohoO! I finally have something to work for. But in the back of my mind I was worrying. I didn't allow anyone to know this, especially not Matthew. I asked him if he had faith in me and at first he was hesitant, due to all my BIG dreams that I never follow through with. This could be another one of those. I began feeling down because I've been doubting myself too...
I really believe this is what I am supposed to be doing. Giving myself a schedule, a goal, and just a program that I can be a part of. I woke up this morning and I did it! It was awesome. It was better than I could have imagined. The work out was 40 minutes long and I never looked waiting for it to end. I was having fun, feeling my muscles burning, and was excited for the next time I get to do it.
Before I began the workout I decided that this would be a journey for me. Not only a fitness journey, but a journey where I can find peace in myself. Where I don't become occupied with how my body is looking or how its only been one day, but I look at each day I do it as a success. I believe that this will transform the way I look at myself and I'll find a brand new appreciation. So this journey is a journey to acceptance.
I'm eager to continue on, and I will journal everday of my progress. Today was day 1 and I could only do 5 of the intense push ups, but I was ok with that! I felt a BURN!!! So maybe by next week I can do 6.
"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you and watch over you." - Psalm 32:8
I read this verse before I began to remind myself who my true instructor was. I believe that He has planned this out for me, and He will take care of me through it.