Thursday, October 28, 2010

My Story-one

I love how this blog has transformed in so many ways. The original purpose of this little space on the internet was for me. I kept it private and treated it almost as a journal. I've kept journals for years and I have stacks of different books to prove it. It's funny when I see one of my journals sitting around, just seeing the cover of it I can feel what's inside. If it's my brown one with japanese writing, I know it was during an innocent period of my early teen days. When I see my green and orange one I know it's filled with pain and transition. Every book has its own purpose, just like this blog.

When I started the blog it was private and I chose to do the blog because I had this satisfaction that I was venting my most personal thoughts just because it was on the internet, even though no one could really read it. It started during some of my darkest days and days that many still don't know I experienced. When I decided to publicize the blog, I deleted most of the entries. I opened it up just for the mere idea that maybe I could touch just one person's life who is maybe going through something similar to what I had been going through. My thoughts don't come out clear in my typing or writing, I am definitely not blessed with the writing gene. But all my life, I've had an urge and desire to write my feelings out.

This blog has slowly transformed into my daily adventures of baking and random thoughts. Although I love what it has become I feel as though I must keep a grip on what it started out as. I hold this blog dear to my heart because I feel like I got through a lot of my pain through this little space of typing. I

My story is long and painful, and I won't share it all in one post because I couldn't do it justice. I don't even know if a single person really cares, but it's on my heart tonight. I still feel pain and hurt from different people and circumstances, so my battles are  no where near over, but I know I've already won. I know sharing the story is going to be hard and take me places I don't wish to go back to, but some part of my moving on is just sharing it with whoever wants to listen.

"Do not expect to be treated fairly in this life. People will say and do hurtful things to you, things you don't deserve. When someone mistreats you, try to view it as an opportunity to grow in grace. See how quickly you can forgive the one who has wounded you. Don't be concerned about setting the record straight. Instead of obsessing about other people's opinions of you, keep your focus on Me. Ultimately, it is MY view of you that counts." Jesus Calling


  1. I'm listening Jenny! I was in a dark place when I started my blog - it's been the light for me.

  2. Aw! That's great and so encouraging! : )

  3. wow this is beautiful!!! and Jesus Calling is an INCREDIBLE book!!!

  4. The personal part of blogs is what touches people. I feel like I have found so many people that are experiences similar things that I am or that I have had and that is very helpful!

  5. I agree!

    And thank you, it is an awesome book!