As I sit here, sipping on my coffee right next to the Christmas tree and Cooper is in his crib napping, I can't help but to think about how much I adore being a mom. I have decided that I'd like to share some tidbits of being a new mom..
For quite some time before getting pregnant, I went back and forth between wanting kids to being so afraid of the thought that I didn't think it was in the cards for me. When it was laid on my heart that it was something I was meant to do, I couldn't help but only think about our future babies.
While pregnant, I thought a lot about what I thought life would be like with a baby. I assumed I'd chronically be tired, so busy with Cooper that I wouldn't have time to shower or drink my coffee, no time to cook, and I'd be depressed about my extra jiggle. Now, please note these are more of the negative thoughts that I'm sharing, I definitely thought more about rocking him to sleep, going on walks with him, seeing his sweet face, etc. i was so excited I couldn't stand it but fear also slipped in occasionally.
While I was pregnant, I took a bath probably everyday and sometimes more than once a day. It was something I strangely craved to do. Well, after having Cooper I didn't necessarily want to take baths but showers became my ultimate refresher. I had to take one everyday, it's what rejuvenated me. I still remember after having Cooper, that first shower I took was probably the most amazing shower of my life. After laboring for 20+ hours and then not being able to shower that first day, it was very much needed. Anyways, I still shower everyday but I'm not as compulsive with it and I don't necessarily need it as a refresher if that makes sense.
On the subject of tiredness, yes, having a baby makes you tired. With that said, I've survived and been able to function on a lot less sleep than I would have expected. Babies sleep a lot. Yes, they wake up at night a few times, but I have a pretty stellar husband and he will take Cooper at times and let me nap. Weekends are great for catching up. There are some days where I don't feel like I'll survive because I'm so sleepy but those aren't as often as my not-so-sleepy days.
Coffee. One of my favorite things in the world. I still drink it, but it's mostly decaf and a smidge of caffeine. Since I breastfeed, I am careful as to how much caffeine I drink so decaf is mostly what I drink. I honestly drink several cups a day just because I love it and I'm thankful I get to still enjoy it every morning.